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Ive been in Finland since Wednesday last week and had the most unexpected but most welcomed internet-fast for 5 days. The first day of the camp, more precisely the first hour of the camp I was like, WHY did I come. Haha, no internet, no phone-connection, no friends, no shower-possibility-only sauna, toilet outside, no proper food, no room for me really and then things slowly started to change. I felt as though in my heart I needed to make a decision. Either to be positive and accept things or behave like a teenager who is never happy with anything. So I made a decision. And suddenly everything seemed ok.
The camp was awesome. I met so many wonderful people. I was encouraged by so many and I had the most precious one-on-one time with a few of them. The worship on the last evening took my breath away and I stayed in the presence of God for 4 hours at least, we just couldnt leave the room coz it was so tangible. Father definitely turned up during these 5 days of the camp. I dont even want to go into details but it was pretty awesome. I felt as though a few dreams in my heart were set on fire again. :)
And the kids. Uh. I tell you. There is something going on in my heart when it comes to little ones. I was just so surprised how well I tolerated the little boys and girls. More than tolerated. I adored them. One small boy especially wanted to cuddle me and kiss me and called me Kirsikka all the time and at one moment looked at me and said: "Sul on Kirsikka-väri tukka" (it kind of means that I even have cherry-colored hair)... And another small one, I can still smell him when I close my eyes. The fragrance of a 2-year-old. Oh curly hair and these eyes and smiles... (On a picture Im with him).

Anyway going back to business. I am in Finland for a week or so more and then back to Estonia I think. Gonna do a little work here and there and I dont really know my next plans yet but Im not worried too much. Not yet. ;)