into the unknown
i can go
for He knows all
and He is good

Butterfly

When her kindergarten teachers asked her who she wants to be when she grows up she answered: "A butterfly".

A 6 year old knows something I have never grasped. She knows that success has nothing to do with big degrees or being someone "important". She just wants to be a butterfly when she grows up. A beautiful butterfly. And she will be. Because she knows her worth.

I believe she will be SO much more. She will be Ester, a beautiful woman. A good woman. Someone who will change the world.

A butterfly.

Grandpa

Well. Lets put it like this. Sometimes the things he says just crack me up so bad.
Today we had another discussion about my walking. I have been walking a lot with my mum and I feel as though its giving me quite a lot of energy and boost. I am not doing this to loose weight but to stay as I am without gaining weight. And I wanna have nice legs. :D
So grandpa said that what the heck, I already have nice legs and that they are not crooked or anything so why should I do anything about them. That was a compliment. And then he said that fat girls are pretty, that if you weigh 100 kilos you're pretty but if you weigh 101 you're not anymore???!!! :D And then he said I have no fat anywhere and guys like bigger girls. Like what the heck?
Oh grandpa. He made my day. Love him!

I know its a picture from February, BUT I just got it and I think its pretty much brilliant! :)

I know its gonna be a good day.

Because I will see Tartu for a few hours after months and months of being away from it. :) 

And then we will have a worship-evening in Võru which Im really looking forward to. Haven't done that for a while and worship always gets me excited. Coming back home tomorrow since we are also attending 2 services and dad is sharing there. So yes yes. Something different after 3 weeks of being at one place. 

I think at one point Im gonna pack my bags and just go. I have no idea where but I need to get away for a while... Yes. I am not the type who can stay at one place for a long period of time. Until I dont have a place of my own I can call home, Im gonna continue going. To places I havent seen yet and to people I havent met.

Hope all of you are having a great weekend. ;)

Sometimes we gotta let go of our own will in order to get what God has for us.
And sometimes we gotta hold on in order to get what God has for us.
Im letting go.
And Im holding on.

...

Wish it could be easy
Why is life so messy
Why is pain a part of us
There are days I feel like
Nothing ever goes right
Sometimes it just hurts too much

Its a part of a song called "Steady my heart" by Kari Jobe and it just struck me hard. Sometimes you listen to some songs and they just move you to the core. This song moved something in me and I realized I'm going through a lot right now.
But the thing is I cant give up. I have to trust my God and I need Him to steady my heart so in hard times I know who my Rock is. There is a sentence somewhere in the end of the song that says: "I'm not gonna worry I know that you got me right inside the palm of Your hand". Wow. Well, if He knows me in and out then He also knows what my heart is going through right now. And He must know how to steady it.
I love that I have my Father to trust when there is no one else (Ps! Dont get me wrong here, I have people in my life but right now I know I have to turn to Him). So yes.
But the song that I was talking about, go and listen to it, maybe you will understand me a bit better: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BJi_7f1cpbk

K

Ive been at home for 2 weeks now and I love the beautiful sunshine and the closeness of summer. Enjoying the walks and talks with my Father. And seeing friends I haven't seen a long time has been good as well. We had a little gathering at our place on Saturday and that was also very good and cozy! I still have no clue as for the future but I know Im not in a hurry. Im trying to take it easy and rest. Rest and just do the things I love... And in the middle of all this get some tan on my face! :)
Sometimes its so hard to reflect on the things that have happened but when you do you realize God has a plan. He has is all figured out for me and all Ive got to do is trust HIM. And in a same time I know I cant just sit and wait forever. BUT as for now. Thats all good! :)

I am not alone.

I will praise YOU in the storm.
I will praise YOU in the peace.
I will praise YOU!

Minu imearmas emme.

HEAD EMMEDEPÄEVA! :) Armastan sind väga. Isa soosingut sinu üle ja ülikülluslikke õnnistusi!!!!

Niinii. Olen Eestis. Türi-Allikul. Pühapäevast saadik. Tean, et ei oska siia midagi eriti tarka kirjutada peale selle, et Jumal on ikka hea ja Ta on ikka minuga. Olenemata kõigest, mis on olnud ja mis on. Ja ma väga armastan oma Taevast Isa. Ja seda, et TAL on hea plaan minu jaoks, isegi, kui ma seda veel ei tea. Ja kodus on ka päris hea. :) Emme söögid ja Estri musid.

KODU!

well

I feel like I haven't done this for ages... I just wanted to post a picture from my Monday. And no words needed except that sometimes I wish I would have children around me all the time. The crazy ideas they have, the laughter, the positive worldview... I want to be childlike.

"Are you the queen? Well, I am training to be a knight but I am really a sailor!"