The Worship

Wedding

...invitations.
Yes, Im already making them. I just feel like Im gonna get a job starting January (ok, nothing is sure, I havent even applied anywhere, I just would like to have a job...) and I probably wont be having so much free time then anymore. So Im making a lot of stuff now already. Including wedding invitations. Im making them myself and thats why it takes tons of time. I have made 20 by now and still 25 or so to go. + non of the cards have anything inside yet coz some of the details arent fixed. So no info inside. just empty cards which bytheway are dropdeadgorgeous. I must say Im totally loving them. And I know Bible says that dont applaud to yourself, let someone else do it... but this time I somehow just like my own work. :)
Oh and we´re gonna have a FATHERS HEART CONFERENCE in 3 days in Rakvere. SO be there or you´re not my friend anymore. Ok, JK! :D
Love you :)

Constant stomachpain

Crap. I can even say the s word but dont want to. Oh. Why is it always before something I am about to do or some event, or a trip or...
Stomachpain.
For 3 days now.
Went to bed around 11 yesterday with the idea of sleeping. Ok, stomach was hurting a bit, tried to ignore it. Then around 2 o clock the pain was unbearable, took a painkiller. And then woke up dad and ended up in an ambulance. FUN. They did tests for 2 hours and then sent me home, coz nothing was found. Was suppose to go back today, but seriously I have had enough of these doctors in Paide. I might go to Tartu, to get some tests done there. Why is it hurting, I mean its not normal. Right? :/

I must be going nuts

Im loosing myself here. Seriously. I need a job. I need to do something that makes me happy. I know there is no way Im going to find a job at a time like this, but starting January Im hoping for something new in my life. Im so wanting to go to Tartu already to my friends and Timo. And Im going crazy because of that.
Im going to buy some stuff tomorrow so I could at least make some handycraft and be happy with this. I have 3 free days this week left and I need to do something with these days coz today I am just... Oeh no words needed.
And of course The Wedding. I mean I hope I wont be this panicking bride who wants everything to be P.erfect. Yes. I hope it works out without me going crazy even though it feels like I am already. Watchin pics every day online... And having thousands of ideas but not really knowing what will work, what not. I seriously wish I could go to Tallinn or Tartu with some friends and go through all the wedding shops and find a dress that would fit perfectly so at least this one HUGE thing would be done.
Jup. Thats me at the moment. A big mess that wants to get out. I love home and everything but seriously, it feels like cage at some point.

How...

...God blesses!

Went to Finland last week on Friday and came back this Wednesday. It was a great time (of course every trip has its bad moments and so did mine) and I had a lot of things happening to me.
Since I was babysitting Ester just before the trip for 2 weeks I got a little money from my parents. Ab 100 Euros. So I did buy a new winterjacket and some little stuff for me and Timo. And so the 100 Euros was gone by the end of the trip. But not really. Here is the thing. I still have that 100 Euros now. U ask me how? I will tell you.

2 people, both of them, decided to bless me with 50 Euros... And so in the end it feels like no money was spent but somehow I have new clothes in my closet... How? God provides.

I put this 100 E into my wedding envelope. I love my wedd envelope. It has about 250 Euros already and all of it has been a blessing from friends... I love how God provides.

God blesses also in other ways. Through encouraging words ("You have a beautiful voice, you have a blessed voice, a strong voice")... through beautiful and long hugs (people crying on your sholder because they feel the love of God through you)... Through gifts (recieved some good gifts during the trip) and through His word and worship.

I am a blessed woman. Im getting married. I have a home now. Even though I still dont have a job Im blessed. Blessed to be where I am. I do believe that coz when the storms come I have something to hang on to!

My wedding planning is sometimes driving me crazy. I love it and I dont love it sometimes. I love the detail stuff, finding things, I hate the money side... I guess every bride and groom have gone through the same hate/love relationship.

Its a bit strange to plan a wedding at a same time with your sister, but good also. You can share thoughts and ideas and... I love Vaarika. I LOVE that both of us are gonna get married in the coming year. Wow, its gonna be KIRSIKA PAPPE and VAARIKA MACDONALD then. :D How weird? :)

Alright.

SO

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When Im bored in 3 days!

Ester :)

Küsisin siis Essult, et kust sa nii pruunid silmad said? Ja tema vastu : Jumal andis! Ja siis joonistas edasi...
Ester armastusest: Seda et ma armastat emmet ja tema süda on punane ja et meie perekonna süda oleks punane! :)
Essu nali nr.2. Armastan ju meie perekonda. ISEGI Timot armastan! :D