My what if´s are no better than yours. They are all just trying to stop me from doing the things I love. These "what if´s" just whisper lies into my mind constantly and heck, if I listen to them then for sure Im not going after my dreams...
Im someone who lives outwardly. I keep very little to myself. My "dark" secrets maybe. Not a lot of those but everyone has their past. Right? Im open to new people and Im social. I love life and I love people. And for that Im judged. And so what? I love music and for that Im judged. So what? I do different things and for that Im judged. So what? I mean if Id look at only that I would never be able to do the things I love. Im not the type of person who can sit behind a desk from 8am to 5pm and be happy with my life. Im a traveler, a lover, a woman, a girl, a princess, a singer, a musician-worshiper, Im crazy and sometimes I cry big time, I laugh a lot and when I SING I smile a lot coz I love music, I work with kids right now and I have been to so many countries and lived in so many different places Ive stopped counting. Im ME!
So often I discover myself judging others. By their appearance, by their ability to do something, by their job, by their hair-color. We do that. We cant see past these things and into their hearts. But there´s someone who can. And who never judges. My Father. And He is teaching me patience. And love.
But I mean if I cant love myself how can I love others? How can I listen to my heart when all I do, is look what others see in me and how others see me? Thats why its sooo freaking important to start loving yourself with your goods and flaws. So that in the end you would not listen to other´s telling you things, but you own heart because you believe in God and in yourself.
So I wanna be someone who follows my dreams. My life. With my Father! I dont want to be a shadow of someone else and their words. :)
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