Day 160: The thing

I mean if I already start to dream about toilets in my sleep then I know its time to get up or an accident might happen. So yes. That was my night. Anyway got up JUST in time! :)
Oh and I realized something. Why on earth we spend so much time to find the favor of the people. So that we could feel good about them liking us and we just try to push ourselves, I mean, all this make up, all these clothes... the way we talk, act blapla. Like we just try to be someone else all the time just for them to like us. I mean and all the while all we need is God to like us, God to have favor with us. Not people. Coz I mean its all good and wonderful if our friends are there for us But this is not what Im talking about. Im talking about all of this fake security. While all the time we are actually insecure and we dont know who we are anymore. We try to be a part of "a group" and we are not. I want to be a part of my DADDYS GROUP. I want to have His favor. And I want to belong to His gang. Why why why do I spend so much time on putting make up on (again I LOVE a little make up just to make me look alive, so Im not a make up hater or anything, haha) so others would finally like me? Oh meeen. Or you know walking along the street and if someone looks at you, all you can think of is "Am I good enough" "Am I pretty enough" "What does he/she see in me"... All these questions run through my head. So here I am saying, FIND FAVOR WITH GOD. I am not telling you the key of life or 10 points how to do that, Im just saying, there is a different way.
Love, K