Day 150: The new way...

Dance like no one is watching
Sing like no one´s listening
Love like you´ll never be hurt
Dream without limit
Smile till your face hurts
Cuddle me like you´ll never grow up
Give like you have plenty
Play like there´s NO winners
Try like you´ve never fallen

Now, I tell you, thats a way to live. Do everything as it is all new to you. I mean how many times we look back to our past and see only failures.
When I look back today I do see crap BUT I also remember the good things.
Like the time I came out of anorexia and Daddy just swept me into His loving arms and said "Baby, you´ll be alright"!!! I could have just been like, hey, I had an awful eating disorder and I´ll never be well again, but God turned it upside down for me, in a good way!
Or the time when I graduated high school with the best grades coz my teachers just were so very very helpful, they knew I needed time to get recovered for what had happened to me...
Or the time I got my driving lisence. That was grace I know. Angels were holding that car and me and helping!!!
Or the time I got accepted to a wonderful music school which gave me my basic understandings of music and I can put all of that into practise now.
And not to mention the fact I live in Wales now. Btw did I ever tell you that some 5-6 years ago I wrote to my diary about the countries I would love to go one day and UK was nr.1. :) How cool is that? Very, I tell you...
I mean, in all of this I could have just been like, hey whats the point. I dont even know what I wanna do with my life. I´ll sit and wait and do nothing. These thoughts did come to me. Many times. But I am so not gonna accept our estonian way of worrying over everything. Hey cmn, we even have that word "worry" in most of our sentences... "Ma muretsen endale auto" etc... How bad is that? I know over times and years I have worried more than I can count BUT then it all comes back to giving this s... away. Worrying is so not from our Heavenly FATHER. I mean what Heavenly Father, what King, would want their princes or princesses to worry? They´ve got it covered, so their sons and daughters could enjoy!

Something reallly bad happened yesterday. And I got bad thoughts like straight away. And they took over me and I was in it for 3-4 hours, just constantly worrying and I just hated everything including myself... And the thing was solved within minutes actually, I just never read the e-mail. Everything was back to right, and there I was, sitting, thinking, why on earth I wasted 3-4 hours of my day being in that bubble????!!!!???

Anyway, here I am. Its 8.39 am and Im happy. Its a new day, a new chance for me.
And I just realized I am going to have a 3 week holiday in October! First going to Germany for a week, then back to the UK for 1 day and then 2 weeks in Canada! Hallelujah. :D Now how cool is that?

So my little worriers, take my advice and be warriors instead, its so much better! :)