Oiiii

I havent written here in a long time. At least nothing about my life or doings...

Well, I guess I can do it now coz I discovered that Im sick and Im sitting home on the floor with my laptop. Was thinking of going to sleep but Im not tired. Just dizzy and feeeling really sick in my stomach, not fun, nopenope.

So about my last week, well actually about this week coz its been crazy.

Ok here is the thing what happened to me 3 weeks ago. I went to recieve some money from my last singing which was actually 3 months ago and then this producer was like, hey do u want to sing in one big event, thats gonna be in the new mall in Tartu on the 18th of September (which is a huge mall). He said that the winners of Superstar 2008+the winner of KAKS TAKTI ETTE 2007 are gonna be the mainsingers and me and my friend would be back-singers (is it the right word, dunno! ;) ). So I told him, that Im gonna think of that, I guess to them it sounded like YES... so in the evening when I went to my Orkut-Profile and watched the new pics of Margus Vaher (the winner of Kaks Takti Ette) and there was a poster with MY NAME ON IT... so without me talking to Kaidi or without me saying Yes to them they had used our names already. WHATTA the... yeah. So now were were without no option, no way that we would have just NOT go there...

so we called and wanted the songs. mmm, usually u get the songs at least one week earlier. Guess what? We recieved the songs on Monday, Tueseday which means it left us 2 days to study 12 songs... Sounds good! ;) BUT WE DID IT. We studied the songs in 2 days and the show was on yesterday night at 10pm!!!!! Everything went good. We gave our best and later on ppl came to say that it was awsome. I loooked hot! ;) yeah... new shoes, high heels. jajab... :D ok JK. But I mean I think I looked good; sometimes its very important to say it to yourself. AI and wearing high heels always make me feel like a grown-up lady or smth. ;)

mmm and here I am now. Just drank a huge cup of hot tea and actually it made me feel a bit better. Im gonna be just alright.

mmm. Andis is leaving to DTS soon. That is crazyGOOOOD! The best decision 4 him. It will change his life and he neeeeeds to go there. mmmmmmm.

I remember my year in DK, CIMC. It was hard but necessary. It formed me and teached me. It made me a stronger person. I saw things in me that I didnt like and I saw how much I need to change in many issues, I mean with God but the main point is that: BIBLE SCHOOL is an amazing opportunity to get things right in your life.

O mai. This is the longest post from me in a long time, and its not that long. haha.

what else. I hav a lot to do actually. studies. BUT I feel like I can be lazy today. Its ok for me. coz I need to sing today in one big church here in Tartu so I can take the morning for myself. Its not a bad thing to do sometimes... :)

ALright.

the end.

mmh

So y-day we had a cell-group in Jenny´ s place and suddenly one of my friends is like; Hey, I found a video of you in Youtube... and Im like... WHAAAAAAT. so here it is. Not good quality, not at all... but o well, I guess someone had taken it when we had a drama in Võhma and put it up there:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ERF9lRwDyog

Well...

...isnt that interesting or what?
Talsi's history is hidden in its calm, cobbled sreets and in its well-preserved park's cherry and apple tree gardens!!!!!!

tsau

Ma mõtlesin, et võiks vahepeal ju eesti keeles ka kirjutada. Ikkagi puhastverd eestlane. no peaaegu, pool minust on Komimaalt, AGA eestlane südamelt, hingelt ja ihult. :P
Nii, pole ammu kribanud, mis mu elus toimumas on.
nr.1 Kool algas 2 nädalat tagasi. Et siis Elleris II-l kursusel nüüd. Suur tüdruk juba. 21.aastane ja tegelen sellega, mis on maailma parim. MUUSIKA. :)
nr.2 Elan uues kohas Tartus; Teguri tänaval Maranata majas (pm-lt elan koguduses. mis on imeline) ja mul on väga armas toakaaslane, Tess. ;) Ilus nii seest, kui väljast!!!!!
nr.3 Olen armunud. Aga sellest ma ei räägi. Vähemalt hetkel mitte!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ja ülejäänud asjad on nii ja naa. Hetkel küll vähemalt.
Mul pole üldse tuju tegelikult kirjutada.
tsau siis :)

What makes me smile?

-Waking up in the morning and having no food; and suddenly someone comes and gives me SO much food to eat that I cant move afer that.

-Feeling like crap; and again someone comes and says that I shine and I just made his day by being there, that his heart jumps when he sees me (my teacher).

-Feeling lonely; hearing my Dad whispering to me: I CARE FOR U MY DARLING and you are not alone, Im with you!

-Being sick; and having a phone call and someone asks, how are you doing? I am praying for you. Dont give up, hang on there...

-Doing something wrong; talking to someone and realizing that I am not alone in this, that I can ask for forgiveness and everything is not gone, that I still have so much ahead if I just go forward and try not to make that mistake again.

-Feeling like giving up; having a skype conversation w someone and having him saying to me: DONT give up, pray, wait and you will see.

-Being challenged; realizing that God never gives us more then we can handle. He is there when I AM challenged, wow. I am HIS daughter and He cares so much that He died for me.

-Walking on the street and seeing people who are in love; I mean WHO doesnt want to smile if they see something like that?

-Holding someone elses beer in my hands and NOT wanting to drink it; which means that Andis makes me smile! :)

I could go forever and forever with this... There is so much in this world, little things, big things. Smiling is a beautiful thing, NEVER forget to do that coz there is so much to be thankful for.

challenge

Ok, this is not normal anymore. I am challenged in so many ways and I dont know what the heck is going on. How should I, KIRSIKA, handle these things?

Just one question; God are You going to be there for me? DO I LET YOU BE THERE FOR ME?

I believe

I believe there is a sun even if I can’t see it
I believe in love even if I can’t feel it
I believe there is God even if He is silent

Words from a prisoner’s wall