8.1.12
7.1.12
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Here I am and here you are. And I am writing and you´re reading. Makes sense huh?
Ok, I am back. Back to Bala. It was a crazy 2 weeks for me in Estonia. I rested and chillaxed and ate some good food, tons of bread for example. :)
A little summary of what I did:
On a 24th of December had a Christmas-party with all the relatives that were around
Practised guitar on a same day with Margus for 5-6 hours, maybe more
Went to Saaremaa for 3 days, saw some friends, relatives, drove a car after 1,5 years of break and it felt just amazing
Went to Tartu and saw my best girls, enjoyed every second and moment with them
Saw Sherlock Holmes and Jane Eyre
Fooled around until I cry-laughed
Went back home for 2 days, spent some time with mum, dad & Ester
Had a little worship-prayer-fellowship
Came back to Bala
Ok, this was just a short review of my good time at home. Of course there can be always things that try to ruin your mood and your heart, but the important thing is to see the positive and the good stuff is always there, just open your eyes. :)
And now Im back to Bala. I thought I have slept enough but Im still sleeping so much. I just woke up, 10 hours of sleep??? Me? Sleeping 10 hours??? After a holiday???!!! :D
Let the New Year bring peace into my heart and yours.
May you decisions be made with God, with your Father.
See His love in little things.
You dont have to look for big miracles to realize He is with you. Look at the sky f.e. Its changing colour all the time. Just another kiss.
Recieve His kisses and gifts.
Dont waste your time for being angry and jelaous. There will ALWAYS be people who have more and who are more talented. But you have your own gifts and anyway, who is the one who measures? We are. We measure each other by our talents and how wrong is that?
Let God measure you and tell you how worthy you are.
Let God tell you how beautiful...
...or handsome you are.
Not the world.
Coz the world measures with words like sexy and hot.
Which is not bad, but it has been made bad.
So there you go.
Enjoy 2012.
Lets celebrate and breath it in with its new opportonities and doors.
:) K
Ok, I am back. Back to Bala. It was a crazy 2 weeks for me in Estonia. I rested and chillaxed and ate some good food, tons of bread for example. :)
A little summary of what I did:
On a 24th of December had a Christmas-party with all the relatives that were around
Practised guitar on a same day with Margus for 5-6 hours, maybe more
Went to Saaremaa for 3 days, saw some friends, relatives, drove a car after 1,5 years of break and it felt just amazing
Went to Tartu and saw my best girls, enjoyed every second and moment with them
Saw Sherlock Holmes and Jane Eyre
Fooled around until I cry-laughed
Went back home for 2 days, spent some time with mum, dad & Ester
Had a little worship-prayer-fellowship
Came back to Bala
Ok, this was just a short review of my good time at home. Of course there can be always things that try to ruin your mood and your heart, but the important thing is to see the positive and the good stuff is always there, just open your eyes. :)
And now Im back to Bala. I thought I have slept enough but Im still sleeping so much. I just woke up, 10 hours of sleep??? Me? Sleeping 10 hours??? After a holiday???!!! :D
Let the New Year bring peace into my heart and yours.
May you decisions be made with God, with your Father.
See His love in little things.
You dont have to look for big miracles to realize He is with you. Look at the sky f.e. Its changing colour all the time. Just another kiss.
Recieve His kisses and gifts.
Dont waste your time for being angry and jelaous. There will ALWAYS be people who have more and who are more talented. But you have your own gifts and anyway, who is the one who measures? We are. We measure each other by our talents and how wrong is that?
Let God measure you and tell you how worthy you are.
Let God tell you how beautiful...
...or handsome you are.
Not the world.
Coz the world measures with words like sexy and hot.
Which is not bad, but it has been made bad.
So there you go.
Enjoy 2012.
Lets celebrate and breath it in with its new opportonities and doors.
:) K
3.1.12
My little monsters.
Do you have these friends in your life that are always there for you no matter how far they are. No matter how little you actually meet. No matter how different you are.I have a few. And I am so happy I dont have many many.
Because they are my heart & soul-friends. They are angels in my life. And they are always in my heart. So deep. They are rooted there.
I had the best 4 days ever. It was just so wonderful to be with these angels (haha, more like little monsters, but hey) and to actually see that no time, no distance, nothing can seperate our friendship.
I love them.
Thank you for spending your time with me.
For sharing your life with me.
And bed.
;)
31.12.11
What are you doing New Years Eve?
So here I am. In Tartu. Its the last day of 2011 and Im loving it. It has been a slow slow morning. Woke up after 10 hours of sweet sleep and then did some little shopping. Now Im kind of waiting for the evening to arrive. Im going the the New Years Eve Ball. Jep. THE BALL.
I know I know Im going alone, no date, nada. But who the heck cares? I have my friends, my joy, my love, I have my dress and shoes. The other stuff can wait for a little longer. I dont need a man to keep me happy. :) And for that alone I am happy. Ok too much happy-talk.
So 2011.
What have you done to me?
How, what, where, when, why?
So much has happened this year I cant even count or think clearly anymore. A lot of good things, a bunch of weird things, a little less bad things. :) I am enjoying my Father´s love more then ever before. I know who I am and Im not afraid anymore to be Kirsika. To be me. I am more honest then I was last year. And not only to myself but with others as well.
The biggest change was to start 2011 single again. Now that was hard. Getting used to someone else around all the time and suddenly there is only you. Of c friends etc. But back from being engaged to single. Not easy. But God has brought me to a place of love and peace at the moment. Well kind of. Im not strong. But with Him I am. :)
The second change was moving to Bala. And to start working for a B&B. Now that is far away from Estonia. Sometimes way too far. Oh well. But sometimes we need these kind of changes. Big time.
Third one is getting to know myself more and more. And realizing Im not a loooser. Not at all! ;)
But now.
What has changed in your year 2011? Why? When? Are you happy? If you dont want to answer to me, dont. But think ab it a little. ARE YOU HAPPY with what you´re doing? With where you are? Are you?
:)
I know I know Im going alone, no date, nada. But who the heck cares? I have my friends, my joy, my love, I have my dress and shoes. The other stuff can wait for a little longer. I dont need a man to keep me happy. :) And for that alone I am happy. Ok too much happy-talk.
So 2011.
What have you done to me?
How, what, where, when, why?
So much has happened this year I cant even count or think clearly anymore. A lot of good things, a bunch of weird things, a little less bad things. :) I am enjoying my Father´s love more then ever before. I know who I am and Im not afraid anymore to be Kirsika. To be me. I am more honest then I was last year. And not only to myself but with others as well.
The biggest change was to start 2011 single again. Now that was hard. Getting used to someone else around all the time and suddenly there is only you. Of c friends etc. But back from being engaged to single. Not easy. But God has brought me to a place of love and peace at the moment. Well kind of. Im not strong. But with Him I am. :)
The second change was moving to Bala. And to start working for a B&B. Now that is far away from Estonia. Sometimes way too far. Oh well. But sometimes we need these kind of changes. Big time.
Third one is getting to know myself more and more. And realizing Im not a loooser. Not at all! ;)
But now.
What has changed in your year 2011? Why? When? Are you happy? If you dont want to answer to me, dont. But think ab it a little. ARE YOU HAPPY with what you´re doing? With where you are? Are you?
:)
29.12.11
IF YOU GOTTA START SOMEWHERE WHY NOT HERE?
IF YOU GOTTA START SOMETIME WHY NOT NOW?
We just finished watching a movie called "Grace Card". I havent cried so hard in the end of a movie ever never before. I strongly suggest you to watch this movie. And not because I liked it but because you need to see this one. It is about grace, forgiveness, love, peace. I have big problems with forgiving sometimes. Im a human-being. Im not a robot who has no emotions, no feelings. But Father is with me and in me. In my 24 years people have hurt me, used me, mistreated me. Just like I have done that to others. And just like you have done to others and others have done to you.
B U T.
There is grace.
There is forgiveness.
Love.
And peace.
So what are you waiting for?
If you gotta start somewhere why not here?
If you gotta start sometime why not now?
IF YOU GOTTA START SOMETIME WHY NOT NOW?
We just finished watching a movie called "Grace Card". I havent cried so hard in the end of a movie ever never before. I strongly suggest you to watch this movie. And not because I liked it but because you need to see this one. It is about grace, forgiveness, love, peace. I have big problems with forgiving sometimes. Im a human-being. Im not a robot who has no emotions, no feelings. But Father is with me and in me. In my 24 years people have hurt me, used me, mistreated me. Just like I have done that to others. And just like you have done to others and others have done to you.
B U T.
There is grace.
There is forgiveness.
Love.
And peace.
So what are you waiting for?
If you gotta start somewhere why not here?
If you gotta start sometime why not now?
There wont...
...be a day without You.
It is not possible that God does not show up in our everyday lives. It is just not possible for Him to not love us. Through our friends, through sunsets, through families, through good food, through little things around us. Cmn, just open your eyes and tell me you dont see God in little things. Tell me and Im not gonna believe you. ;)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OtLs8N6rlFU&feature=plcp&context=C3c96100UDOEgsToPDskLwbGuGf24miw3ZHSAsJG0n
So Ive been home for a week now. 1 more week to go and back I go. Its been one amazing week. Started off not so good, Ester being a bit trixy, but as the time went on it just got better and better. Ive been seeing relatives, good friends, beautiful island Saaremaa etc. Ive been able to spend time with Ester. With mum and dad. Yesterday I walked around in Viljandi with my 2 best friends from school time. It was just awesome and it felt so unreal. It was like a question in the air - is it really real??? Are we really together again. I hadnt seen one of them for 4 years and one for 2 years. Wow. And there we were, chatting like time meant nothing. And it is so true, time does mean nothing in these things. Of c we have all moved on with our lives, but then again, we still care and we still love each other.
So 1 more week eh. Im going to Tartu tomorrow for 3-4 days. Not sure yet, but Im so gonna enjoy my time there as well.
Ok, if there wont be more posts this year then next year for sure sure.
Love you.
Kirsi
It is not possible that God does not show up in our everyday lives. It is just not possible for Him to not love us. Through our friends, through sunsets, through families, through good food, through little things around us. Cmn, just open your eyes and tell me you dont see God in little things. Tell me and Im not gonna believe you. ;)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OtLs8N6rlFU&feature=plcp&context=C3c96100UDOEgsToPDskLwbGuGf24miw3ZHSAsJG0n
So Ive been home for a week now. 1 more week to go and back I go. Its been one amazing week. Started off not so good, Ester being a bit trixy, but as the time went on it just got better and better. Ive been seeing relatives, good friends, beautiful island Saaremaa etc. Ive been able to spend time with Ester. With mum and dad. Yesterday I walked around in Viljandi with my 2 best friends from school time. It was just awesome and it felt so unreal. It was like a question in the air - is it really real??? Are we really together again. I hadnt seen one of them for 4 years and one for 2 years. Wow. And there we were, chatting like time meant nothing. And it is so true, time does mean nothing in these things. Of c we have all moved on with our lives, but then again, we still care and we still love each other.
So 1 more week eh. Im going to Tartu tomorrow for 3-4 days. Not sure yet, but Im so gonna enjoy my time there as well.
Ok, if there wont be more posts this year then next year for sure sure.
Love you.
Kirsi
27.12.11
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http://www.youtube.com/kirsika21 - Ive got 3 new songs uploaded there! :) We had some fun with Margus on the 24th of December. So go check them out for yourself, have a little laugh at one of them and just enjoy! I am so very sorry about the quality, it might not be the best, but who cares!
Love, Kirsi...
Love, Kirsi...
22.12.11
:)
Stupid HOME ALONE I. Seriously, makes me want to have snow. Real bad.But at the moment it just doesnt matter. Im home to my mum, dad, grandpa, Ester, and my lovely friends. Had 2 friends visiting me already, wonderful girls. Uh. :) Great day (if I forget the fact that I got sick when I got home, I mean just stomach-flu or smth, not great, but who cares?)...
So there you go. My first day at home.
21.12.11
im20.12.11
Little rain.
Oh how cozy I feel at the moment sitting on my bed listening to the crazy rain outside. Its just pouring and pouring. I think bringing my pink rubber.boots was the best decision I have EVER made. Seriously. Bala is the master of rain. It is so constant here that I dont even notice it anymore. I used to dislike rain so so so much coz it stopped me from doing stuff. It sure doesnt stop me anymore.
And the other cozy thing. My Mr. Darcy is loving me today. Well, not my finger-tips (oh men, thats the hardest part for me. I used to love love love having long nails, polished red or smth, and not its only short and the finger-tips, uggh, hard and calloused), but hey, thats not the main thing right. The thing is that I just played an hour or so. Tried to sing along but it was more just enjoying playing this time... Dont know whats with that. Sometimes its horrible, sometimes wonderful. But Im at the very beginning. Sure Im getting there one day when I can just sit and play without stopping etc. But Im already in a progress and not stopping now.
Ok just random thoughts.
Now Ive only got tomorrow til Estonia.
Ok someone shoult hit me or something. I cant stop talking about the E-word. :D
And the other cozy thing. My Mr. Darcy is loving me today. Well, not my finger-tips (oh men, thats the hardest part for me. I used to love love love having long nails, polished red or smth, and not its only short and the finger-tips, uggh, hard and calloused), but hey, thats not the main thing right. The thing is that I just played an hour or so. Tried to sing along but it was more just enjoying playing this time... Dont know whats with that. Sometimes its horrible, sometimes wonderful. But Im at the very beginning. Sure Im getting there one day when I can just sit and play without stopping etc. But Im already in a progress and not stopping now.
Ok just random thoughts.
Now Ive only got tomorrow til Estonia.
Ok someone shoult hit me or something. I cant stop talking about the E-word. :D
:)
Its so close Im going crazy. Trying to pack everything into this tiny suitcase is gonna be a huge challenge. I mean 2 weeks with handluggage? Thank God Ive got winterclothes in Estonia, and dont have to drang anything along from here. :) Makes me happypuppy.
So there we go. Only 2 full days to go and Im home to mum and dad. Now how great is that? And yesterday´s call made me want home even more. Called Essu to ask what she wants from me and after she said it has to be a surprise I asked her to ask mum and that what they want. Both of them said ME. They said not to bring anything and can I just go home already. Oh my little heart jumped of joy! :)
Its Tueueeseday. Yeah. You heard it right. Tueueeseday. I hear autumn outside. I hear spring outside. But no sign of winter. Please, pretty please Estonia, can you show your Kirsi some mercy and bless her with snow? Thank you! :) Labi, going to work now... Who knows what this day has for me. Maybe something great. Maybe not. Im still gonna trust God.
So there we go. Only 2 full days to go and Im home to mum and dad. Now how great is that? And yesterday´s call made me want home even more. Called Essu to ask what she wants from me and after she said it has to be a surprise I asked her to ask mum and that what they want. Both of them said ME. They said not to bring anything and can I just go home already. Oh my little heart jumped of joy! :)
Its Tueueeseday. Yeah. You heard it right. Tueueeseday. I hear autumn outside. I hear spring outside. But no sign of winter. Please, pretty please Estonia, can you show your Kirsi some mercy and bless her with snow? Thank you! :) Labi, going to work now... Who knows what this day has for me. Maybe something great. Maybe not. Im still gonna trust God.
19.12.11
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Today is the 19th of December. On the 22nd of December is my day to go home. Estonia. Oh the sweet taste of my mum´s food is already in my mouth. I can taste the potato-salad, the sweet bakeries, meat-balls, home-made bread, chicken, ham... Whatever my mum makes, its always delicious and special. Its always made with love and care and it tastes heavenly. :) Ok I made myself hungry now. No surprise there, haha!
So... I wish I could be able to write about anything else, I cant. Its on my mind and in my heart, so there you go.
Kirsi
So... I wish I could be able to write about anything else, I cant. Its on my mind and in my heart, so there you go.
Kirsi
18.12.11
Little kids never think twice when they see water or mud. They jump. And they jump BIG time. I want to be a kid again. Never thinking twice when it comes to having fun. Oh it sure was a sweet sweet feeling yesterday jumping around in these mud puddles. It was the best day in a long long time and I enjoyed every second of my walk with my friend. Anyway. I am sure learning to love myself and let myself be me. Not copying anyone else. Not trying to be anyone else. Just me, Kirsi. And I am beautiful and lovable. And I am all that my Father has made me to be. Walking hand in His hand. Oh and in case you didnt know, He has BIG and strong hands. :) Safe.
ISSI
Kui 23.November oli emme päev ja nii iga aasta, siis 18.Detsember on minu jaoks issi päev.Täna on sinu sünnipäev.
Söö siis palju kooki, aga mitte liiga palju, et lõhki ei läheks.
Las emme hoolitseb sinu eest ja musitab ja kallistab.
Las Essu olla Essu. Väike pätu. Ärge temaga pahandage.
Armastan SIND NII PALJU!
Palju õnne sünnaks, issi! :)
17.12.11
Because.16.12.11
I can...
...taste home!Ester: "Kirsu, vaata, kui sa koju tuled, siis sa tood mulle ka midagi. Eksju?"
Kirsu: "Ooot, oot, kumba sa siis nüüd rohkem tahad, kas Kirsikat või asju?"
Pikk mõttepaus.
Ester: "No olgu, sind tahan ikka rohkem."
Jälle mõttepaus.
Ester: "Aga sa tood mulle ka ikka midagi, eks?!"
:)
Shh!
I think I have thought quite a lot now.
And I have decided. Again.
I cant let one little comment to influence me so much.
If people want to talk they will find reasons anyway. I cant let it ruin my heart and my life.
So this blog is gonna be open to everyone again. Please dont judge me for my quick decisions. It was just very painful to recieve this little sentence that tried to bring me down. But hey, if people want to talk they will talk. And let them talk.
I am who I am. I am gonna continue being honest and open about my life.
And this blog has brought comfort to so many people. And I dont have it to hide from the world. So there we go. An open blog it is again.
:) K
And I have decided. Again.
I cant let one little comment to influence me so much.
If people want to talk they will find reasons anyway. I cant let it ruin my heart and my life.
So this blog is gonna be open to everyone again. Please dont judge me for my quick decisions. It was just very painful to recieve this little sentence that tried to bring me down. But hey, if people want to talk they will talk. And let them talk.
I am who I am. I am gonna continue being honest and open about my life.
And this blog has brought comfort to so many people. And I dont have it to hide from the world. So there we go. An open blog it is again.
:) K
http://www.youtube.com/user/kirsika21
My very own very cool youtube channel. Im planning on postin new videos soon, in Estonia! STAY TUNED! :)
My very own very cool youtube channel. Im planning on postin new videos soon, in Estonia! STAY TUNED! :)
12.12.11
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