My head...

...is full of thousands of little and big thoughts. Some of them are so good, some of them are horrible, some bad, some happy, some sad. I bet you have the same problem. Am I right?
We all think. Mostly only all day long. Ironic eh? It seems Im alone in this and whenever I talk to someone I realize we are all in the same boat. Some less, some more.
So what are my sad thoughts? My sad thoughts are my health, my friends who are having hard times, my family struggling, my future. And happy thoughts? My happy thoughts are my friends, my family, my future.
Strange huh how the same things can cause us distress and joy in a same time. And the thing is that actually non of these things is in my hands. NON. And yet every day, constantly, I try to fix things. I try to worry about things. And I shouldnt. My Father knows me better then anyone else. Better then my mum and dad. Better then my best friends. Better then Johnny or Mr. Darcy (joke).
But hey, Im just an ordinary me. And yet so unique. With my own thoughts and actually, the more I learn to trust HIM the more I get to be me.
So. Here I am. Its storming outside. Im really cozy sitting on a warm room and thinking. About my life. About who I am and what is gonna happen.
And then I stop. Coz I realize I need to live in the moment. Sometimes its really important to just live in the moment. Just right now. to cherish what Ive got. And Ive got A LOT.
More then most people have.
And yet there is a little bit in my that is dreaming so big. So big that it seems impossible that these things will ever come true. But like my friend said that its good, coz then I cant try to make it come true myself, but let God do it. I mean otherwise I might do it from my own strength. Ok maybe you didnt get it. See, if we dream way too big, then God has a chance to step in and make our dreams come true. If our dreams are tiny we can just easily make them happen ourselves. ;)
And yes. I am afraid. I am afraid, WHAT IF... What if non of it will happen. What if I end up being single. What if I end up not singing, not making anything with what God has given me... What if, what if, what if. You know, what if´s should be crossed through with RED colour coz they just SUCK.
Live your dream and wear your passion.
Live your dream. I dont believe it only means that we only have to live and do the BIG things, but also means we need to dream big in order to have any answers. :)
Im going to sleep now. May Father watch over me and you. And may He read the dreams we have in our heart and heck, I know HE KNOWS ME!
;)